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Jul. 31st, 2009 | 01:45 am


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apol sta.maria's ang alamat ng panget & many other

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ano ang nagpapasikip ng dibdib mo?

Aug. 31st, 2008 | 01:42 pm

Ako musika at alaala. Lagi ‘yan. May maririnig akong kanta tapos parang pipigain ang puso ko, tapos mapapangiti ako o kaya mangingilid ang luha. Magsasama-sama ‘yung internal sa external, anatomical at physiological sa emotional at mental. Sound waves turning to chemical reactions turning to what we know as emotions. This, to me, defines the awesomeness of being human.

Maraming nagsikip na dibdib kagabi (more than 40,000 daw). Lahat kasi ‘yon may baong kwento. Lahat may gustong pakinggan. Lahat may gustong maalala.

Ako kunwari. Gusto kong maalala ‘yung high school at early college. Nung nasa bahay pa si Ate. Nung nakikinig kami ng Circus habang nagbibihis sa umaga. Nung pinapalitan namin kay Papa ang tugtog sa kotse ng bagong bukas na 90-peso BASF cassette ng Cutterpillow. Nung nagagalit si Mama ‘pag naririnig ang Tindahan ni Aling Nena dahil ang ingay daw. Nung sabay kami ni Ate mag-recite ng Punk Zappa. Kahit hanggang nung Freshman na ako sa UP tas pinapatugtog ko sa bahay ang Overdrive para payagan na nila akong magdala ng kotse. Maraming maraming marami pa, bumuhos lahat nang sabay sabay.

Times 40,000.

Tumatanda na siguro talaga tayo. May anak na si Ate, abugado na ako. Marami nang mahahalungkat na alaala. Sumisikip na ang puso, wala na masyadong space.

Parang puso ni Ely. Ang bigat na talaga siguro, hindi na niya kinaya.

‘Yung pusong ‘yon ang nagbigay ng soundtrack sa good old days natin. That heart captured the untold humor of our seemingly drab stories as students, lovers, sons and daughters, commuters and dreamers. Pinagsama ng pusong ‘yon ang mga kwento natin, kaya ngayon may iisa tayong kwento na maganda at totoo.

Paki sabi kay Ely alagaan niya ang puso niya.


It’s hard to put to words the profoundness of last night. Recovery will be long and wrenching.


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batian 'pag nagkita sa sabado!

Aug. 28th, 2008 | 07:38 am

It's a great time to be living in Manila.


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ngo pay ain't so bad

May. 24th, 2008 | 03:35 pm


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new stash, fuckers. :)

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kailangan niyong maintindihan kung gano kahirap noon maging fan

May. 22nd, 2008 | 01:55 am


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walang limewire o torrent, kailangan mong bumili ng cassette sa odyssey o kaya mag-record ng kanta sa radyo (at magdasal na hindi madaldal ang dj para malinaw ang intro ng kanta... dapat din Pause ang pindutin pagtapos ng kanta dahil dinig ang pagpindot pag Stop agad).

walang amazon, kailangan mong mag-abang ng babyahe para may pasalubong na merch. swertihan lang kasing makahanap sa national bookstore, uniwide warehouse club at regina's sa greenhills.

walang e-mail at paypal, kailangan mong magpadala ng self-addressed stamped envelope at money order para makasali sa fans club.

walang official website, kailangan mong mag-ipon ng P150 to P170 (mahal na masyado ang P200) every week para makabili sa booksale o filbar's ng bagong issue ng bop, big bop, teen beat, tiger beat o 16 (tas ipapagdasal mo na ok ang napili mo at hindi puro pin-up ng nelson twins at saved by the bell cast, bawal kasi buksan ang plastic na balot).

walang google, kailangan mong alamin ang lyrics mag-isa kung wala sa tape sleeve. play-pause-sulat-rewind. play-pause-sulat-rewind. kailangan din marunong kang mag-imbento ng lyrics kung di mo talaga maintindihan.

walang dibidi, kailangan mong magpakopya sa vhs ng mga concert. tas lumalabo pag sobra sa kakapanood. pero minsan madumi lang ang tape head, konting linis ok na ulit.

tas kailangan mo pang hintayin na medyo malaos sila nang konti bago mo sila mapanood. (ganito pa rin ngayon, pero medyo mas rich na kami, kaya na namin manood sa ibang bansa minsan.)

walang wikipedia, kailangan mong umasa sa chismis na late ng ilang buwan kung dumating (na-chismis pa dati na namatay daw si alanis).

walang youtube at mtv, mag-aabang ka pa tuwing linggo ng umaga sa video hit parade. meron din pag hapon sa channel 2, pero puro guys next door (yung video na may unggoy).


ginawa namin ni ate lahat 'yon dahil ganon maging fan. wagas.
sa mga nakakaintindi, namnamin natin 'to:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=u-ntnChcHys
http://youtube.com/watch?v=dXcyD0WKdyU&feature=related
http://youtube.com/watch?v=vmFKZIfE5YE&feature=related

ito ang mga nasalba ko mula sa golden years of fandom, nawala na 'yung iba:
http://bobbiesm.multiply.com/photos/album/56/kailangan_niyong_maintindihan_kung_gano_kahirap_noon_maging_fan

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sumasakit ang puso ko

May. 5th, 2008 | 12:08 am

narinig ko ang "dreaming with a broken heart" tas na-miss ko ang veronica mars.

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when no longer scared and even a bit proud

Apr. 6th, 2008 | 12:33 am

(Cubao a week after the happiest day of my life)

“Spontaneous” and "possible" begin to make sense, like the shoes you just curiously tried on that suddenly became so you.

Driving your little sister to her average weekend activity, you can stay for one beer because there is no longer a pattern of worry to nurture.

And then you see old friends and new friends on their regular Saturday. But it is not regular to you because it has been so long since you last talked to an old friend about that planning sem in Subic or anything not related to the bar or being scared, and it doesn’t feel like so long ago. And you can talk to new friends with ease, almost as if they were one of the old.

You can talk to Romer (from eight years ago in Ictus) and act happy because happy came exactly a week ago and it hasn’t gone yet. You can take up space on the same table where Nikki and Timmy and Grace and Mira and Shawi (from many car rides and nights here at home) are, and it’s okay.

Then you see Lianne and Mark whose joy, you know, are pretty much identical to yours. They introduce you to Jed and two others from Lomomanila (I am terrible with names), whose work you’ve recently come to know, admire and shamelessly use. And you’re blessed with the chance to show gratitude that isn’t just bits or bytes or data.

Then you greet Kathy, Selena and Owel and they greet you back without the distraction of preparing for a set or being exhausted from a set. And since it is a night of words that are kind and meant, you are not ashamed to tell Owel that you find him to be great at what he does (mahusay na musikero).

Then Pike comes over. From four years ago in St. Paul. And there are things to talk about because she was your co-teacher and Bong’s teacher and Ate’s orgmate in La Salle. And you can smile to Janina, who you know of but don’t actually know, because she is with someone you know and you are with people she knows too.

Then Bubi materializes out of nowhere like a ninja, and you can be all excited because you’re quite sure that Ate has told her about the good news. And Gab, another one from Ate’s world, is hanging around quite comfortably in a scene very different from your backstage and kiddie party encounters.

And you can go on getting giddy over the commonplace because you have just tasted victory and it is sweet.


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me, romy, and my new lumix trick, salamat kay rolly :)

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acceptance speech

Mar. 30th, 2008 | 03:33 am

natapos na ang roller coaster. buhay ako. hindi ako mahilig sa roller coaster, pero wala rin namang pumilit sa 'king sumakay. mukha lang kasing ok.

lilipat lang ako sa ibang ride. magkasama pa rin tayo sa enchanted.

ok lang matakot. nakakatakot naman talaga. sigaw ka lang. pero tandaan mong ride lang 'yan ha. bababa ka ring buhay, matapang, mayabang at masaya. mas maangas pa dahil two rounds.

kita tayo sa carousel. tapos merienda.



p.s.
hindi ko kaya ang ginawa mong no-hands sabay nakadilat, hindi ako ganon katapang. ang saya siguro...

idol talaga kita.


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everyone, thank you for your prayers. :)

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send us some love

Mar. 19th, 2008 | 11:43 pm

please say a prayer for me and my batchmates in UP. bar results coming out on march 28. i hope we all pass.

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the day i took my duck for a walk

Mar. 19th, 2008 | 10:47 pm


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no true fandom without merch

Mar. 16th, 2008 | 02:43 am


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what my right hand is doing that my left hand should not know about

Mar. 11th, 2008 | 01:20 am


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That's me and my friend Joel, happy and gay (respectively).

We'll be flying to Leyte on Easter Monday to visit the smart kids of Sindangan Elementary School and to deliver gifts from our generous dollar-earning friends.

Sindangan Elementary is a small school in Southern Leyte that (we heard) topped the '06 and '07 National Achievement Tests.

Joel should explain this better since I'm just tagging along:
http://jopearl.multiply.com/journal/item/23/Summer_Fling

Notebook donations welcome! Or go with us, why not? :)

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'wag galitin

Mar. 3rd, 2008 | 12:39 am


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the wallpaper is so 1994

Feb. 20th, 2008 | 01:34 am

To those like me who spent their high school nights in peach wallpapered rooms doing homework, buy this product at National Bookstore (P49.75) and unleash the Juno in you.


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It's never too late to be cool.Collapse )

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so this is what it has come down to

Feb. 7th, 2008 | 11:43 pm

"jun, you moderate their greed."



(isali na natin ang pagpapaliwanag ni senator jamby madrigal sa national tv ng ulam ni jun lozada... lamb curry, extra spicy.)

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